Reality hits

After so long, I guess I should at least write something. I have been doing a lot of writing recently but all about work, so I guess I need to divert my attention a little bit. Take a lil break from my hectic work.

Well, when you get older, you got lazier. Less passion on stuff that you thought you loved. All you do is work, work, work, work, work.

Reality hits me real hard after my graduation and step into the working life. All the fun I had before it's all gone. But I'm not gonna feel sad about it, because it's just a process to enter a new stage of life. You might struggle in the beginning, but it's gonna be easier and alright. So, it's time for me to search for new fun! Fun that suit this stage of life. 😂

I am very grateful that I have wonderful colleagues that add funs and spices to the working life  Although a wee bit of them are heart pain, still not gonna let them affect me! 😜

I'm also doing part time study now, and super looking forward to my study leave. I really need a break, although exam is not very fun, but still better than work. XD

It's not that I don't love my job, but it's the admin work and sometimes confusion that I hate. I'm still looking for a great sifu while struggling on my own. Worst part is I'm so lazy to take the initiative. Maybe after the exam I shall have a new start. *maybe* haha

Readers, sorry to keep you waiting. Blame the work! 😅 Thanks to the technology now, I can just update using phone on my bed XD

Crazy one with them 😻

*Seriously, I need a getaway. Peeps, jio please 😁

Sorry I broke my promise

I just realised that I have forgotten to update this blog which I promised last year. And this year is coming to an end. I have realised when you are getting older, there are more things you have neglected, maybe not you, but definitely me. I am no longer the same Mabel compared to last 10 years, priority is different, thought is different even the social cycle is different. Sometimes I hate myself for being someone that I would hate, eg break a promise. Even it is not on purpose, I'm just being old and forgetful, but still hate myself for it. However, gladly I'm awake now, time to work something up! Just do it right!

Better late than never :)  While I still have time.

#updatesoon #atleastbefore2016

Update Soon! Stay tuned!

For year and months I left this space and I am comin' back!

By The Sea @ 沿海地带

Well, after so many days I had landed in Penang, my HOME, finally I get to meet my girls~ :)
I have been waiting for this long-awaited gathering of us. Thank goodness!
We went to watched Despicable Me 2, super duper cute and funny! not just those minions, but the kiddos are cute too!
But in terms of story lines and the plot, it seems ordinary, not really surprising~
Haha, I must admit that I knew how the story is gonna end when I saw that agent and that salsa guy. Fortunately, those minions keep me away from boredom!
One of my friend non-stop laughing since the beginning because of the minions, she love it! And I enjoyed the laughter~ XD

Then, we went 2nd round to eat our dinner at somewhere around Raja Uda. Although the food is not very delicious, but it is still acceptable la, plus it is kinda cheap! heeee..

Next, we went for 3rd round! It's dessert time~ We went to this place called 'By The Sea/沿海地带'
I was surprised by the decoration and ambience, it really feels like you are by the sea. There are sand on the floor, the flag, the sunshade and etc that created the beach atmosphere~ Besides, sound of wave played from the sound system occasionally. :)
Well, I ordered chocolate vanilla crepe cake but no drink cause it is not attractive for me, haaa..
Taste nice! And I think the best among the 4 cakes we ordered. :P
We spent our time by chit-chat and catch up with each other life after so long separated and lots of selca. XD
From the conversation, it makes us wonder and to admit that growing up is not something delightful, more hardships, pressures in life and it is harder to establish an earnest relationship. Old times during high school are the best days of all, nothing much to worry of, makes friends easily, especially those lifelong friends~
Wish to go back? Nah.. What had been done already done, we must continue the journey no matter how! At least we are not the only one, we got each other! Complain to each other would be enough for me :)
Feel contented with what I have now, I may be penniless, but I own more than that~
2 more years and I will be graduated. Still unbelievable to me, and I have to mention it so much to make myself to believe. Haiz.. I'm scared to face the world outside, truthfully.
Glad that we spoke a lot that day, and I wish to meet them again, soon!
Gonna start working tomorrow, wish the best for me! :)

With so many uncertainty in life, I have to stay positive and Live in the Moment.

Study Week or Holidays??

It has been long since I ever post something~ 2nd post of the year!
Haiz, super busy life in this semester, busy with club then busy with never-ending assignments and now it's exam week. @@ I don't even have enough time to dating ar....... Haha!
That's fine, I can always find some time during the study week to do stuff that I'm not able to do during normal days. It's kinda holidays for me, which is bad.. >.<
So, to make my holidays complete, I'm taking some of the holidays time to write about it. (one of the things that I won't do during normal days. XD)
From the start of the holidays (study week), I went to Tanjung Sepat with my dearly friends for camp programme celebration. (After one year+ the event ended. XD) It's a really small town, with a lot of beautiful scenery, we took a lot of picture there~ :)
We did went to Sepang Gold Coast as well, the place that we played football together last time~ Besides, we went to Sepang Circuit as well!! But unfortunately it closed.. :(
During the journey of this one day trip, it reminds me many memories of our camp day. No matter it's good or bad, it would definitely be one of the unforgettable moment in my life.

This is the picture at Sepang Gold Coast. I'm actually inside the sand castle~ ^^

After this one day trip, I spent the rest of my holidays by playing all the facebook games, watching 'Crayon Sin Chan' everyday and finished 'Nikita' 3 seasons in one row. What a study week! @@ 

I did plan to go back to my hometown, but there is always something pop out and stopped me. :(

Besides all those entertainment, of course I did study, but not really that much. I don't think I'm able to do full preparation for this exam AGAIN.. What a typical student. 

And then, it came to an end of my study week/holidays and my exam week had started. One paper (Corporate Tax) done! 5 more to go.. 

And I'm not even finish one chapter of the coming paper. Last minute work again.

So I must work hard in the remaining days! No more holidays! It's exam week! Well, this post will be the gimmick for my exam week. It has officially begun! Do wish all the best and good luck for me yea!

I wish I could make through all these paper smoothly and without regret! I miss home! 

Abel, You Can Do It! :)

*writing this while listening to bee gees 'How Deep is Your Love' <3

My Holidays~

Yup! It's Holidays! I wonder what have I done during the holidays?
Hmm.................... REST I guess, after mentally and physically tortured by the assignments, study weeks, exam weeks, the SUN (I'm very black now!!) and camp at Malacca.
Well, I'm glad that finally I'm HOME! :) Mostly I sit in front of my lappy, watch movie, drama, and do my holidays assignment. What this assignment about? It's about DESIGNING. Unbelievable right? So, I made my 1st baby step of designing using Adobe Illustrator, and I enjoyed! Thanks to my friend Lily for encouraging me to have this chance to learn new stuff! :)

So here is my 1st design without any trying.
Description: the head as a 'solar system', and the stopwatch as the heart.
Of course I have designed a better logo after this one, but I think I wouldn't disclose it here, it's CONFIDENTIAL.. XDD
Besides designing, I help my mummy do some house chores, cook rice and shopping! Almost every night I shopped with my mum~ Hoping to find nice clothes to welcome CNY, but it's hard to find the clothes I like these days.. I only bought one dress, two tops and one pants for now. I must add oil for the remaining 12 days!
By the way, I cut my hair today! Hahahaha, back to my old style~ Love it! :)

Well, my holidays seem lack of something, that's gathering.. >.< What to do, it's always the timing's fault, so I had to reject my friends for 3 times.. Feel bad about it, but I hope CNY we can all meet up! Looking forward for it! I always love gathering with my friends~
I hope before holidays end I can really make use of it so that I'll be energized for the next semester! 
Can't wait for CNY! I'm gonna meet with my sister, relatives, and friends! ^^

iT'S hARD tO sAY gOODBYE

Countdown 3 days left, I have to back to my school..
What can I say, time really flies.
For almost 3 months of holiday, I have relaxed myself thoroughly at home, by watching TV that I missed, by eating PENANG FOODS that I missed so much!, by doing some house chores for sure and meet with my my dearly friends and relatives that I missed lots lots~~ :)
After resting for so long, school and lot of stuffs await me~
The schedule is so pack from the beginning.. Gonna spend whole two weeks except Wednesday to rehearse and preparation the Interaction week..>< We had a lot of difficulties now, hope it can be solve before the event, haiz...
I'm gonna miss this place so much when I'm there~ I'll Miss EVERYTHING~~
Can I stay? The answer is NO!
I have to say goodbye again to this place again, my mum, my relatives, my friends and the food here!~ :(
But, back at there I can meet people that I miss lots too, Y can't everyone just stay at one place? XD
Hope everything will be find for the new year and new semester~ :)
I'm gonna ROCK this!! I'm sure!^^

April FOOL?!

GOOD DAY, TODAY IS 1 APR, APRIL FOOL DAY~
TODAY I WENT TO THE CEMETERY TO PAY RESPECT TO OUR ANCESTOR AND OF COURSE MY FATHER.
YESTERDAY, I HAD MADE MY 1ST TIME, 1ST TIME CRY BECAUSE OF HIM. I DON'T LIKE THAT KINDA FEELING. IT'S TORTURING. ><
I HATE HIM TO QUARREL WITH ME BECAUSE OF JUST SOME SMALL MISTAKE OR WHAT EVER. HE SCOLDED ME TWICE YESTERDAY, HE TALKED RUDE TO ME, HE RAISED HIS VOICE TO ME, I CRIED OVER THE PHONE BUT HE NOT EVEN NOTICED. I FEEL VERY VERY VERY SAD BECAUSE OF HIM. I SUPPOSE TO BE HAPPY THAT FINALLY I'M HOME~ FORTUNATELY, MY FAMILY ALWAYS CAN MAKE ME LAUGH :)
HE SAY HE IS SORRY, BUT BECAUSE OF HIS STUPID PHONE WENT LOW BAT, WE CAN'T EVEN COMMUNICATE.. ><
HE DIN REPLY MY MSG UNTIL TODAY AFTERNOON, HE LET ME WORRIED.
I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO FORGIVE HIM. I HOPE THAT WE WON'T QUARREL THAT OFTEN ANY MORE. I FEEL TIRED..
PLEASE, I HOPE THAT I CAN UNDERSTAND U MORE, I HOPE I CAN TREAT YOU BETTER, I HOPE TO TREAT YOU MORE SINCERE. I KNOW IT'S MY FAULT AS WELL. HOPE THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE, EVERYTHING JUST A FOOL AND I CAN DO BETTER. <3

ART&INSPIRATION The Mill Show Reel 2012

Gathering!! ^^

What I love about festive seasons is, 
it can gather all the people that miss each other so much together. ^^
I had met my secondary friends, matric friends, and my 26R54S Gang.. 
Really miss them so much~~
All of these gatherings have one in common, my friend as never changed!
Yea, undeniable there must have some changes after all those days that we missed together, 
but they just changed physically! Inside them, there is still the same~ ^^ 
I always know that whenever I need them, they'll stand by me, 
they are all these such great persons! Really love them! 
26R54S, we really went through a lot together. 
Between us, there always can't have a secret, that's they way we always are, haha. 
Tat day, you all are still that funny and lovely~~ ^^
Love all my friends and famillies!
Appreciate while you can ^^ Feel very very very Happy!! 
My mood absolutely GOOD! haha

Reunion Dinner?? @@

Haha, recently I'm too free to write blog.. Hmm, what is reunion dinner? It's actually a tradition of chinese on chinese new year eve. But my house don't have that kind of tradition la, we normally eat it as lunch either on eve or 1st day of new year. It's ok, coz it's actually the same. Today, i wake up early in the morning, help my mum to fold shirts, paper for pray... It spend me 1 hour to do that, so can you imagine how many is that? Hmm... In the afternoon, my cousins Thompson and Charlie suddenly sent us a visit. Haha, since ages i didn't saw them. Actually we are quite awkward in the beginning, but fortunately we still are the same, chit chat non stop after minutes of silence. haha. My sis went out since early in the morning, so she doesn't has a chance to meet them. Tomorrow we'll go ah ma's house together to bai nian! ^^ Can't wait for tomorrow! It's NEW YEAR!! Can't wait to meet all my family, miss them! ^^

The day i feel Numb and Dumb

Hmmm, after a long period, finally I have some mood to write. Haha, I'm having my exam week now, so it is such a torturing week for me now!! 
Urghhh, the question I kept thinking is why we need exam?? Why can't we just learn what we are interested to. Uni life is still a new thing to me I guess, although experienced it for 4 months++ for now. Still trying to adapt and balance my life. It is not simple right now, it is either hectic life or bored life... So sad that I didn't watch korean drama and movie for ages~~ I used to watch at least one movie per week.. TT Everything changed... 
Back to the topic, this morning i wake up late as usual, hanging around as usual without study anything. Then I have Mcd as lunch!! So nice that my neighbour ask us to order it together~ So sweet ^^ After that, start studying+dreaming+sleeping+fb-ing+tumblr-ing.... Haiz, then i just finish one chapter before my dinner. Took a dinner at cafe with my roommie, szero~ then continue to study~~ finally! At this moment, I manage to finish extra 2 chapters! Although it's just a little but great success to me. Now, i need to relax myself by watching Running Man!! Great show indeed. Tomorrow I shall jog around, need exercise to boost my stamina, I've been so weak.. :( 
Btw, not forget to mention, the weather is Terrible!! It made me to bath thrice today... 
Hmmmm, hope my life will get better. Appreciate what ever that happened today to make a better me. Good night.

It Happened Again!

Ya, It happened again. It's the 2nd time for my 1st sem in Uni. 
Tat day we have workshop at Station One cafe, but there is one woman that is smoking for couple of times when we are there. 
I try my best to bear with it, keep counting my pulse without letting my group mates know. I scared they will worry, I try to act as ntg happened for the whole period, it's really suffering. Finally, I exploded, can't bear it any more.. 
I rush to the toilet to take a breath, same thing happen, whole body paralysis, trembling, my legs can't even support me, feel suffocated, my heart feel like jumping out of me.... Really painful.... 
Fortunately no cramp happened. I ask for help from one of my member to take the plastic bag for me, then I do what the doctor always tell me to do. 
Phew... I feel relieved, then i go walk around the Jaya One, get some fresh air, make myself calm. Ya, that's it, i feel fine again, continue to work!! I really feel scared, it happened more frequently now. I feel that I can't control myself anymore.. 
When only i can overcome it.. I really hope that in the new sem it wont happen any more. Please help me, God. I don't even dare to tell my family, don't want them to worry. 
Haiz.. It's ok! I had came through that attack, ntg serious happened, it makes me appreciate my life more! Thankful.

NEW & Steady!!

Mabel Tan as my name is a newcomer for creating a blog. For further information u can refer to my profile.
The reason I create this blog is my IT lecturer order. This is the lesson of the day.
So i think create a blog is quite simple, while posting i think it depends on mood.
Well i think don't have any mood to post a blog right now, probably just say all craps here.............
Maybe i'll never come back to this blog anymore or i'll keep posting about my simple life, so just wait and see.. Thanks for seeing my post^^